I don't care........

[Mega]

I don't care about Gold, BTL,Banks or anything else.........i think i be better off dead.
Been thinking about all day, i waited...weeks, months & years but there is no collapse & i now see there won't be any.........

Never felt as unhappy as this, i know my going would upset some people & the dog.....but i don't care any more.....

I hate my life, i hate my people & i hate America that had once was my friend.......not taking any more meds...

I think the problem is we are bought up to expect joy & happyness......but there is not much to be found. I spent the last few years watching America, my hero nation totally trash its soul. What could have been the greatest force for good on this earth is now little more than a 3rd World nazi state..

I see only darkness ahead..............

[Forrest]

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Yes...I see it too...a really bad time coming, and America at the heart of all the evil being done. Or at least TPTB that caused America to follow greed into evil.

But Mike...even in the midst of all the darkness there is light...beauty...even happiness. To see it one does not close the eyes to the darkness, but stare steadily at the light until one can see even in the faintest glimmerings the piercing beauty of a bird's cry, or a puppy's bark, or the smile of a pretty girl as she responds to a compliment, and an appreciative glance from your eye.

Even in disastrous times, good comes out of evil, and YHVH helps we poor humans to rise to the challenge, and decide to enjoy a sparkle of light in the midst of darkest. It does not prevent the darkness from causing harm...the light helps one to stand against the darkness, and when it has passed, as it must because even the thought of Light disperses Darkness, the Light helps one to repair the damage, and rebuild lives.

[lektrode]

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I see only darkness ahead..............

sounds like SADS to me, mr mike. (same thing used to happen to me, til i spent the 1st winter in the Fla Keys)

would recommend an immediate vacation - try the south of.... uhhhh.... france?

[shiny!]

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I'm sorry you're depressed, Mike. It's a tough, tough illness. I think you and I need to find a sunny beach somewhere, and just sit and watch the waves roll in while the world falls to pieces behind us.

One of my favorite writers is writing again after a long haitus due to depression. Here's her latest. I certainly identified with it; maybe you will, too.

Allie Brosh's journey through Depression Part 2.

Here's hoping you find your piece of corn.

[shiny!]

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i think i be better off dead.

The problem with that theory is that there is no coming back from it if you're wrong.

[Woodsman]

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It's all a complete farce, you understand, we're born into a losing struggle. No one comes out of this a winner. As such, we must show some contempt and defiance and the best means of doing that is irony and obscenity. You seem at your best when you're blasting the bastards with double-ought salvos of obscenity and irony. And now for the rousing speech:

In all seriousness, depression is real and there's no need to accept it without fighting for your true self. So go see your local doc and get the meds, cousin. Commit to staying on them until the new year arrives, get yourself a lightbox, get physical in any way you can, and then reassess come January.

The shit of the world will still be there waiting and you're worth the effort, mega man.

[lektrode]

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....we must show some contempt and defiance and the best means of doing that is irony and obscenity. You seem at your best when you're blasting the bastards with double-ought salvos of obscenity and irony.

+1
but yer missin one of the best pain relievers of em all, woody - the Big H (no, not that white stuff)

H U M O R
something mr mike has apparently been cut short on...

In all seriousness, depression is real and there's no need to accept it without fighting for your true self. So go see your local doc and get the meds, cousin. Commit to staying on them until the new year arrives, get yourself a lightbox, get physical in any way you can, and then reassess come January.

or better yet - if the south of france dont git it for ya?
head to fort lottatail (or liquordale, whatever it takes ;) for 'spring break' -
or maybe panama city for some 'shots' ;)

[Mega]

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[Woodsman]

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I'll see you one pie in the sky NASA wish list and raise you one USAF wish list.

Is this what's getting you? Then fuggetaboutit and start working on getting to the doc and that beach Lek mentioned. And maybe think about a hiatus from media for a while, just to clear the head and get some perspective. Even iTulip. We'll be here when you get back.